Roses by Outkast

So lets just state the obvious i am out of my freaking mind lol, i know that i am but i say to myself i know that this is crazy but i am going to do it anyway, because there is a chance. I feel like llyod from dumb and dumber, so your saying there is a chance, but in my situation i am told there is no chance except for the make believe chance i create in my head. So without further adieu here is the story of last night. So i meet up with frida at about 9 pm and we hop on the train and go to this bar and meet up with one of her friends who is at the bar with a bunch of people. Later during the night some of frida's other friends come whose names are frida elin and carl. After a while the only people left at the bar are the five of us. I think that the conversation is going really good and i made a point to talk a lot to her friends since that can have a big impact on the overall situation. We were supposed to leave the bar and go dancing but elin, the one who i was talking with the most got drunk so we decided to just go home from there. So i hop back on the train with the two fridas and then i get off at my stop and say goodbye. at that time i was not sure if it was for better or for worse that we did not go out to the club, and still i am not entirely sure. But that is the life that i lead lol. anyway i send a text message when i get home thanking her for a good night and she says she will message me tommorow and maybe we can hang out. She messages me and says she is tired and prob just going to stay in and do nothing so i say well if you want we can do nothing together. she resonds back that she is going to study, what for i have no idea, and then go to dinner with her parents, so i wish her well. but last night she told me to ask her any question and she would she respond with a truthful answer. so i asked her if she wanted me to come and visit her again in three weeks. She responds with a very defensive answer like why do you want to come and visit me again. and also you know that we are only friends etc... so i respond back with what i think is a good answer saying that i really enjoyed hanging out with you and your friends and it is the most fun i have had in a really long time. so we will see what the answer is when she replies back but until then who knows i can only hope and see what tommorow brings, for the dawn always brings a new day, and with a new day, new possibilites.